Fitness test: 12wbt

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I did my fitness test today and I’m stuffed. I haven’t even started the real program yet lol. I got a fitness score of 27/100. 100 being an elite athlete and 1 being a big lazy pants who cant move. I have a long way to go, Here are my stats;

Push up (on knees, no pauses): 7

Plank: 40sec hold

Sit and reach: -2 (0 being my toes, neg numbers above my toes and pos numbers past my toes)

Wall sit: 30sec

Aerobic: 7min 27sec km


My 4 week goal is to improve to a 32/100. I need to be able to do the following.

Push up (on knees, no pauses): 12

Plank: 1min hold

Sit and reach: -1 (0 being my toes, neg numbers above my toes and pos numbers past my toes)

Wall sit: 40sec

Aerobic: 7:19 km

I will be doing my measurements later this week so i’ll post those as well. I also start my silks course next week so its going to be a hard and painful couple of week.. Woo hoo 🙂


My 12wbt: pre season

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I’m starting the Michelle Bridges 12wbt program on the 5th and I’m super excited 🙂 I’ve set up a page where i’ll keep it all together so feel free to follow along or not.. I am hoping to write as I go and try to keep myself accountable. Here’s to some new found fitness, healthy food and hopefully some fun. Plus the bonus of a really great distraction from TTC.

I will be doing the learning to run program (L2T) as Im hoping to start running regularly and I’d like to compete in some fun runs in the future. The exercise program runs over 12 weeks hence the name. My program currently consists of two running day, two toning days, one core day and one combination day that she calls super sat session (SSS) that is 1.5hrs long and pretty intense. Im assuming as the weeks go on it will change.

The program also includes nutrition and mindset lesson. It allows you to completely plan your meals and the mindset lessons are all about changing the way u think about food and such. Its all very exciting so i’m looking forward to getting into it next week.


I cant decide how anonymous I want this blog to be. Of the people who know me personally only my husband knows I am writing this blog. I have considered sharing it with my close family and friends who know we are trying.

What if I write something that offends them.

Do I want the world to know my deepest darkest thoughts about the shit storm that is infertility and be able to put a face to them.

Do I want people who I know but would never share my feeling with to have access to them all in writing.

I have always been told not to write anything down that I wouldn’t announce to a room full of people I know. How much of what I’ve written would I announce?

I have shared a few identifying facts such as my first name, a few personal photos none of which include me, I think I may have mentioned the city/country in which I live. The internet is a very small place and people are very good at connecting the dots. I worry because this isn’t only my story. This story belongs to my husband and it includes some very personal information that he may not want to publicly share.

I think as time goes on I will be able to make a decision, but for now Im just going to keep going the way I am.

Another announcement

I thought after my big revelation the other day (that I’m still young, I have time and we can delay further treatment until after I’ve finished Uni) that getting announcements would be easier.

A after work yesterday.

A: “I was told something today at work and It doesn’t really affect me but I think I should tell you but I don’t want you to be upset…”
Cue alarm bells to ringing in my brain. Who is pregnant was my instant thought.

Me: “ok… (Insert suspicious face) what is it??”

A: “you know co-worker A, well his wife is 12 weeks, they had their scan today and he announced it at work”
 I think I’m going to vomit at this point.

Me: “ok” tears start to build in my eyes, my throat constricts.

A: “don’t be upset, I’m sorry I know it sucks. I knew they were trying co-worker A told me in Jan they we going to try for a second baby”

Me: “so they fell pregnant their first cycle off the pill” the water work start really flowing now.

It takes me a few minutes but I pull my shit together. I’m trying to be nice so I say, “ok that’s good for them.”

A: “yeah it is but co-worker A was saying he was a bit disappointed it happened so quick because they wouldn’t be covered by their health insurance yet”
Are you fucking kidding me!!!!

Me: (insert sarcastic tone) “Oh how unfortunate for them their insurance won’t cover their Ob. Well our insurance barely covers our fertility treatment.”

Why the fuck are they going private anyway, I’m a midwife if you are low risk, I don’t see the point in paying through the nose for a doctor who will only be there for the last 5min of your labour then send a giant bill. When the hospitals midwife does all the hard work. Even when your high risk you will be referred to the City’s public tertiary maternity hospital anyway.

A: “Jess… Why are you being so mean about it. You should be happy for them. They deserve a baby. You should just suck it up.”

Me: “What don’t we deserve a baby. How can you not get it you of all people should understand why I feel this way! They aren’t my friends they are just people who have what I want, so I hate them for it.”

I don’t think I should have to suck up how I feel. I do that at work I’m not doing it at home. After some further discussion I think A understood where I was coming from. But I was so shocked that he wanted me to suck it up. We haven’t spoken about it yet and I think we have just agreed to disagree.

Damn the fertile people.


Infertility is the inability to conceive a child. A couple may be considered infertile if, after two years of regular sexual intercourse, without contraception, the woman has not become pregnant (and there is no other reason, such as breastfeeding or postpartum amenorrhoea). WHO, 2013

According to the world health organization as of the 18th of April I was officially infertile.  I am feeling surprisingly ok about it so far. But ask me again when my next AF arrives and the stabbing cramps return with her.

Happy Easter everyone


Happy Easter everyone. I hope you have a wonderful long weekend with your families.

Easter kind of sucks with out any kids though. The youngest people in my family are my 3 month old niece and she doesn’t care about Easter yet and my 9 year old cousin and an egg hunt isn’t much fun on your own. I cant wait until I have my own kiddo’s to bring the fun back into the weekend. Here’s to hoping next Easter we have a little someone to get excited for.

xo J.

New supplement regime

I have just started a new supplement regime. It is based on my own research and the information contained in this post should not supplement doctors advise. If you are interested in alternative therapies have a chat with your doctor before making any decisions. 🙂

What I’m taking..

Vitex agnus-chaste. 660mg BD (morning and night) for 1320mg daily

Vitex has the ability to increase the production of progesterone so is useful in treating endometriosis, a condition in which the endometrial tissue normally found within the uterus escapes into the abdominal cavity, causing pain and menstrual difficulties. Because it stimulates growth of the uterine lining, vitex can help reverse infertility. [found here]

Evening primrose oil. 1000mg BD for 2000mg daily

Some studies have shown that it can help reduce PMS symptoms, increase cervical mucous, while reducing inflammation. This is because of its high content of the omega-6 essential fatty acids (EFA’s), Linoleic Acid (LA) and Gamma Linolenic Acid (GLA). [found here]

Magnesium forte. [this brand] 1 tablet daily. 

A deficiency of magnesium has been linked with female infertility. Magnesium supports progesterone production and increases the blood supply to the uterus. It is important for egg production. Some research shows that magnesium, when taken along with selenium, helps lower the risk of miscarriage. [found here]

Pregnancy essentials tabs. [this brand] contains Vit D3 1000iu, Folic acid 400mcg, Iodine 150mcg and Omega 3 DHA 300mg. 1 tablet daily. 

I picked this brand because Im Vit D deficient and folic acid is a no brainer when TTC. Plus it had the added bonus of Iodine and Omega 3. 

Iodine and pregnancy: In the developing fetus, baby or young child, the effects of iodine deficiency are serious. They include stunted growth, diminished intelligence and retardation [found here]

Omega 3 DHA: is useful for inflammation which is a large portion of the problem with endo so why not hey 🙂

I’ll be chatting with my acupuncturist about any other herbs she would recommend as well when I see her next week. Im going to have the most expensive wee in all the land by the end of this all.