5 weeks

I’m 5+5 today and I’m feeling pretty crappy. I have had constant nausea today, my boobs are on fire and the constipation has already began. With all that though I am incedibly lucky and so so so happy that I finally have nausea and burning boobs. It’s reassuring that to have these symptoms it means everything is ok. I’ve had two HCG tests so far my first at 4+5 my level was 3310. My second at 5+2 and was 12000 so everything is tracking along nicely. I have my dating scan in 2 weeks and I can’t wait to see the little squirt.

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GP appointment

I had an appointment with my GP today. She has referred me for routine antenatal bloods including a quantitative HCG and a scan to rule out an ectopic pregnancy due to the cramping I’ve been having. Im freaking out about the potential of a tubal pregnancy because I know there is an increased risk with endometriosis anyway and I don’t think I could cope with the idea of terminating a prefect pregnancy because its in the wrong spot. Im pretty sure though if it was ectopic I would be in constant pain or at least increasing rather than cramps that come and go and are nothing like the menstrual cramps I’ve had. Plus I know that cramping is not an unusual occurrence in early pregnancy. We have affectionately given the embryo the nickname of squirt and I so cant wait until we get to see the flicker of a heart beat.

So this happened!!

We did it

 

After 27 months of trying we are so happy that we finally have our BFP!!!

I have been on cloud 9 all day. This morning I just decided I wanted to know either way and I’m so glad that I tested. According to my maths I’m 4 w 3 d with an EDD of 19.03.2015

I’ll be ringing my FS clinic tomorrow because thats what my doc advised me to do if we got a positive HPT. Hopefully we will have a beautiful heart beat in 3-4 short weeks.

Jinx

I am now 4 days late and in the past when I have been late for my period I have done a few things ( jinxs ) that have almost immediately resulted in AF starting. 

1. Tell someone my period is late

Every time I have mentioned I’m waiting for my period to show to anyone whether it’s A or a friend guaranteed it will arrive that night. I told Alex on Thursday and still nothing. 

2. Have sex 

This is another one of my jinxs if my period is late and we have sex AF will arrive within hrs. To the point where I actually have avoided sex for fear of being let down again. After my IUI’s I avoided sex for the week before my period out of fear. 

3. Take a home pregnancy test

Every HPT I have taken has ended in AF that day if not I’ll wake up with it the day I intend to take the test. So now I’m laying in bed holding my bladder and freaking out about whether or not to take a test. By way of symptoms I don’t have many. Just the lack of flow, odd left sided cramping and minor almost non existant breast tenderness… Most people test multiple times before their even due, I can’t it makes me so sad to see that single line. In the whole 2 years we have been trying I can count the HPT’s I’ve taken on one hand. Watch this space.

Time

A lot of time has passed since my last post. Every time I went to write I realized I had nothing to write about. It’s funny when you stop thinking so hard about getting pregnant and you devote less of your emotions to the cause it kind of kills the writing material. 

So what have I been doing instead…. Uni, exams, clinical placement. It has been keeping me very busy. But now it’s all done and I don’t have a distraction anymore. And my period is late. I used to be a 28day kind of gal before BC after I stopped and began TTC it went to shit for a few months but slowly got back to the regular schedule. Except for last month I was 1 day late and AF arrived at like 9:30pm which was unusual again because I was normally a first thing in the morning gal as well. Anyway back to this month I am now 2 days late. Hopes are rising and now I’m writing.. Stupid emotions